A person like me doesnt update his blog when everything's going fine in life. My posts carry a reflection of joy,anger,pain,relief,guilt,frustration,etc...something which makes my day memorable and which has got some memories, happy or sad...whether one can extract out tht emotion or not is not my headache...
Its 2a.m on 17th may,and i should hv been enjoying the success of my third sessionals by now,but dont feel like doing it.The reason is simple... i was supposed to be sitting and writin my third sessional DEC paper 17 hrs ago,i.e. from 9.15am but I was trying to get over the guilt of having to skip it inspite of having scored 13 and 10 in my previous two tests.... not good enough by any standards.I can always shield this with the excuse of not feeling well for the past week,but then, have always believed that it shouldnt have got to this point in the first place...
You dont need to be a rocket scientist to make out that my life at MIT has been a complete "academic catastrophe" and I've been a lean shadow of what I used to be in yesteryears.Anyways,that's another story....
The day started with relief and tension......of David not having to face the Goliath(DEC) and the Herculian task that lies ahead of me.Being an optimist like me does help in these situations but when you put ur head down and think,one realised that Davids dont slay Goliaths everyday, and I guess i've already had my share of Goliath-hunting.The decision to skip the paper wasnt a tough one,given the hours....err... minutes of effort I'd put in preparing for it and was massively helped by my roomie's suggestion.
Finally,the clock struck 2.45 and I got past my 3rd sessionals!!!Just the end sem exams and then home,sweet home...
As always,the day ends now with an expectant tomorrow,the hope of realising my dreams,the agony of my past deeds, the promise of setting up realistic,optimistic goals and.......the confidence to fulfil it
