Time and again, you feel yourself standing at the crossroads, feeling absolutely clueless. You haven't been betrayed by anyone, nobody has broken your heart, there's no romantic angle in the most distant of horizons and your social life is as normal as it has ever been. Yet, there's this sinking feeling threatening to break you down into bits and devour you completely. Lucky Ali's "anjaani raahon mein" and other similar songs start making more sense now and you start flipping through decade old song collection to excavate out songs of similar mood.
Despite being a mid 80s born I refuse to accept it as a mid life crisis and I dismiss the "get married" suggestion equally strongly. No health problems, no angry girlfriend, no sexually transmitted disease.. NOTHING! Probably this is the point when you feel like writing might help you out, as it has traditionally been an outlet to your feelings. A quick self examination on the mental level tells me that I'm of a sound mental condition and have plenty on my plate to even think about doing something non productive. But then, there are times when you end up doing the most unlikeliest of things at the most unexpected time. Its past midnight now and tomorrow I'm supposed to deliver a presentation, thoroughly read a case study which would enable me don the devil's hat and grill the presenters, complete a long pending article and carry on with the "fundamental analysis" tutorial that I started studying few hours ago. But here I am - making a long pending addition to my blog. Any apparent solution for this helpless situation (or can someone please state the problem for me)? May be talking to an old friend would help, but I already did that half a day today on our whatsapp group!
Oh, human nature, when'll we be able to completely decipher you?
its called societal pressure.. everyone around you is settled.. parents must b looking out for you... you would rather find her on your own.. but you're not looking... you're waiting for a miracle to happen.. so even though you don't put much mind to the matter.. the fact is, it is on your mind... :O
ReplyDeletegenerally.. making a killer presentation for the next day should deviate your mind... but i see it fails in your case.. have you tried reading a thriller?
I also recommend hearing the song "Perfectly lonely" by John Mayer & you will realize you're not alone in feeling the same... its such a common feeling that songs are written on it! ;P
Thanks for the suggestion, Geets!
DeleteIts been a while since I wrote this and yes, it vanished long back!